dezzZAAAMMM hommie

believeindez @ 2007-07-12T21:21:00

2007-07-13T01:28:34Z

i hate days like these. sitting on the computer all day doing notthing, no body being on, ect. yeah lame. i get my liscens at the end of the month. thank youuuuuuu. my fingers are going into the rutine of being a cammilion again. gross. every other summer that crap happens. ek. whateve.
i post stuff in my buzznet but no one read that, but it doesnt matter because no one reads this either. idc. im glad. so then i can say stuff and only like one of my reallllly good friend would read. i hve a problem with venting outloud. i vent good on blogs and journal things. but i cant say it out loud. man everytime im on lj im so depressed hah. im going crazy. lets talk about the good stuff tht happend.

i dont know when was the alst time i wrote in here but ive been with my older sistr the last week or so because moms out of town. ect ect. afro bash was fun. hung with shayla a lot. learned a lot of stuff about other friends. . haha shayla you know what im talking about. yeah thats about it. haha.
my hair smells good. man warped is comming up sooo fast. i cannot wait. i need to get back to a reg bed. bleh. life.

believeindez @ 2007-06-01T17:12:00

2007-06-01T21:28:25Z

gah so tired. i dont know why i am here when i could and should be sleeping. not smart.
hgb show was fun. fun dancing around. i havnt sang that much or that loud in forever i think i needed it badly. saw pirates 3 @ midnight with shay. that was really fun. my birthday was alright. didnt meet up with tampa friends. but ate at planet hollywood with my mom and little sis. then afterwards i saw pirates 3 again with ben. madina lake show was the bestest. those boys are so nice its unbelieveable. got to chat with them after the show for a while which healed me some. i like to know that there are some people who are accually appriciating everything thier getting. they make you wanna do some good on the world too.

now i am here. i have to babysit all day for the next four days. so this means being stuck in my house. and its either about to rain or burning hot outside to bring little miss izzy to the park. lame.

act-june9
theaudition(maybe)-june9
senior pics-june15
honda civic-june15

isnt it funney how all those things are only on two days.

i hope i go out of town.
.

some emanual kids. knowticed on the third pic the gator being put in my mouth.

william is fun

idk if i put this up. but yeah little sis

juan and i [last day of school] i miss that kid.

juan robert i. :]

my sisters are better.

shayyyla and i in the theathers awaiting for midnight.

bdayyy

i really love planet hollywood :]

believeindez @ 2007-05-12T22:12:00

2007-05-13T03:46:40Z

ha thats what stephan and i are masters at

so im tired. but i was looking around at this here lj and i knowticed its been forever and a day since i wrote somthing. ive been writing blogs more on my buzznet. its funney how i had a buzz net forever ago . like before buzznet was wil friends or enemies. lol

a lot has happend since that last blog. like the biiiiig things that happend were the Disney DC games , with cristy and lauren :D so much fun. i saw Jonas kids of course, didnt have to much time to chat with them due to how many fans they havenow. nick just about inked my hand lol that was pretty funny. then security pulled them all away. im so proud of them, i swear half of the kids there were for them. then there was corbin bleu, ashley tisdale, hannah monatana , and a whollle bunch more of those kids. and guess what. they are all pretty and beautiful like they are in tv. i loved it. haha. the love arcade show was fun. went t that with jessica. we had chats with nate and christain. silly boys. nate was showing us his dogs lol awsome people all of them.

im back to my fav color being orange. my nails are long. tanya called me a wannabe spanish person becuase i got my nials done lol. every one does that fool ;]. my hair is gross. i was watching these 3 kids so i drove them over to the park and then cristy came by to help me because she also needed community service hours. we had fun. even though it was burning up like a freaking forrest fire. we went to target with my mom and izzy. we were there foreverr. my mom couldnt find a orange shirt lol. we did random things and saw a lot of people. let me give this time to say hey to bethany becuase i just added her and theres a good chance shes reading this. lol . fun.

schools almost over and summre is almost here. 7 days . but barely. my birthday is in exactly 2 weeks :]. i was hoping to get my camera but recent news just strucked me that dumb million aeirs like to take are money secretly. boo. so now im going poor. soon ill be living downtown with the hobos. ha no ill live in the social or somthing. pita pit sounds good lol. ok

my sister cut my bangs. lol it was a 2 second thing. it was fun. i like them
LiLy allEN! <3 i love her. shes my hero.
spider man 3 wasnt the best . i was very dissappointed. pirates 3 is commmming in two weeks minus one day :D whos pumped? mee. lol

comming up:
last day of school = may22
hellogoodbye,boyslike girls, secret handshake, rocketsummer= may 24
pirates3=may25
turning 17=may26
madina lake, Army Of Me, Emanuel, Firescape=may28
ACT=june9
fall out boy, the academy is...,cobrastarship,+44, paulwall=june17
warped=july22

thats all for summer so far ha. then after all this im probably going to seattle :]

<3
tommorw im doing mothers day at disney. lol i do disney everyweek waht am i talking about.

yeah there are multiful events of pics in here. i dont want to explain them all.

thats paiges wall haha<3 i love it. igave her that poster for her 16t bday and those are pics from her visit here and old stuff <3
im hopefully visiting pc soon<3

family force 5, he was nice. we missed the show but we went to the back to find them lol

ff5

for shannons sweet 16 party
heres more pics.

nate knows what metal is.

:]

eek to small. photoboooths<3

my older sister got me that necklace from LA for my bday<3333333333333333

i made us hippy bands

izzy takes all my pictures now.
before hair.

\
now

barbi and harajuku :D
marielou gave us the names lol

off to bed<3

believeindez @ 2007-03-03T23:27:00

2007-03-04T04:41:55Z

i sit here bored out of my mind with hair dye in on my head. i know it isnt going to stay long so i probably will be doing this again. hopefully with real hair dye. work sucks. money is lacking. everything is breaking. my head hurts so much due to not relaxing for one second these last two days. this week has been crazy. it never ends. test all week due to me not being smart or even clever enough. college and LA makes me work my butt off. im so excited. went to the theme park today. cheerleaders everywhere. i guess it was a comp. while walking by the hard rock, i saw some guys with super sweet hair. they were video taping some cheerleaders doing somthing dumb. when i get up closer i thought of who was in town tonight. then when it came to me i was like "SNAP, thats family force 5!" haha thought it was funney . i dont think anyone there knew who they were or what they were doing lol. that was the end of that. it needs to be tuesday so i can feel what ive been working for.

next friday is start of spring break. not too much planned. just on saturday is TOC with jessica. should be scandalous. then sleep over. dont ask what is going to happen because i dont even know. im so over highschool crap. im never in drama and glad about that. i just want it to at least be summer or somthing.

believeindez @ 2007-02-22T19:53:00

2007-02-23T00:57:58Z

I rush life way to much.
I can feel myself not being able to breath. I need to breath. I'm exploding like a bomb, but i'm going to prove that I can shut it down . change everything I do not like. why complain all the time when you can change it. ill tell you when I did it.

believeindez @ 2007-02-16T22:02:00

2007-02-17T03:14:33Z

the heart may freeze or it can burn the pain will ease if i can learn
there is no future there is no past i live this moment as my last.

i <3 rent.not a lot has been happening in the last few days that are that exciting. cute boy, valentine day=more like antivalentine day. schuyler gave me this cupcake with a heart and an x over it. i loveddd it :D and stephan got me a flower. thats the stuff i got. but i wasnt even asking for stuff. i dont need it. work is lame. i want to quit. i got a role to be an extra in the new amanda bynes movie and i get paid so that will help me get up to 600$ so i can quit fasterrr :D MWWHAH! i have a plan dont worrie about me.

I plan to go to New York with BPA. im so excited you have no clue. apperently were going to be staying in Matthatten and that is the place to be! haha <3 im sooooooo excited i cant control myself. I never been on a trip that far by myself so that will be cool. Plus i dont really know a lot of people in BPA , but in a way i kind of like it like that. first off i get to meet people then 2nd off i get to go by what i want to do. :] ill have my camera by then so ill be taking pictures madd crazy :] .

stephan likes to skip his 6th period to hang with me. he calls me gay but he loves me. he likes to shake it up too....

random pictures..

thats stephans nipple btw.

headbutting? hes weird. but i love him
jhaha im totally modeling jays phone ^ lmao.

i want that ^^^^^^^^^^

believeindez @ 2007-01-31T21:14:00

2007-02-01T02:27:02Z

If procrasination had a name, i would have D.E.Z all over it. this needs to change.lets just keep up on the fun stuff happening. i got my braces off. HOLLER. went to J4YZ party. fun night. talked to everyone i usually dont see. and hung out with some of my fav. kids. Im finally getting back on track with my school. I dont know why but if I miss one single day i blow up. Now im kind of scared again due to not going to school today, because i had another dentist appt. Man them denstist sure do love my teeth. This Friday should be hang with Tampa/Woodwork friends at IOA. yet im still not to sure if im going to make it. Let us pray for hope and success.

Lately ive been thinking about moving. I dont know why i cant ever stay in the same place. I mean I like it a lot in Orlando, but i want to move to a different section on the compace. Ive been in Florida my whole life basiclly. Im probably going to be stuck here for a few more years. There the rest of this year, then senior year, then college possible here. College will not be in orlando if im lucky. I at least want to go to JU. or somthing. I must leave and grow up . or so my sister says. My sister should be moving to LA at
the end of this year. im so excited forher. Thats where i want to be. The only reason i would stay is if Paige seriously cannot move outof state. She said at least 2 years after high school then weez out. but idk. i would rather move now.

Any ways. Im going to be saving up $300 so by the time its my birthday (if not earlyer) i can be able to pay for half of my camera. Canon XTI what. haha lame digitals are lame. ah woah. well that is all i need to finish a presentation about how my school sucks so i can read it on friday to my history class. bye.

ps. lowcarbdiettime. ew.

believeindez @ 2007-01-23T20:15:00

2007-01-24T01:44:55Z

the partys hardly started and youre on your way departed
got your drink on get retarded and just try not to get carded

so there was a last minute change of plans, so i did end up going to the pink spiders :D
this adventure is full of hobos, hotties, drunkies, more hotties, photobooth, music love, toungingxtin, so much more.
love arcade is amazing. i love love love their music. christain is silly boy. thought he was the merch boy. made myself
sound really stupid but then ended up being funney. it all lead to him being the singer haha. but yeah they came on
and i did not expect how amazing it would be. i was like Deeeeennnnnggggg. :]
action reaction was chill. i enjoyed it a bunch too. drummer boy shawn i think it was is a cool kid. photobooth was fun too.
dont know what happend with christian hekind of dissappeared... ugh haha. but shawn was fun. sharing drinks.
free red bulll. thanks nate. pink spiders. i think its quiet funney that i went for them and i didnt watch haha. i saw a bit. when we first got there
the line was long so we tried to follow jon to try to get it. but then we just waited. good thing because the line never ended.
we left in the middle of the pink spiders. due to curfew. CURSE being young. but yeah we didnt see kill hannah. didnt plan to.
im not going to be mean in this entry so yeah that is that .homless people of downtown are scary. so beofre we got there
we made plans on what we were going to do if something happend. we would pretend we dont speak
english and be like "NO RAPO NO RAPO"! "me gusta reggggeton! ROMPE RUMPE @" lol that is all. .. fun night. ilovejessica.

christain, he ran away after this pic. :\ lame. jerk. "jjoking"

shawn, amazing kid. haha even though we only had not even 10 mins with him
once again i hate curfews and being this young. it would be better if i was aloud to do stuff.
college im out man. forget that.

all in all .. amazing night

believeindez @ 2007-01-21T21:08:00

2007-01-22T02:30:29Z

they say quiters never win, we walked a plank on a sinking ship

mm fall out boy last night was amazing. it simply made me look at things brighter :]
im not sure what it is but latley ive been content. the sky is bluer the wind is fresh.
i dont mean to sound weird but seriously. its good. im seriously about to drop those
friends to alllways tend to put im in a horrible mood. i dont need none of that right now.
i want to be surrounded by the friends who are always smiling and know that one day
down the road were going to talk about that moment. i miss hangin with my friends who
always see me in a good mood. and always watch after me because they know ill watch over them.
i need some of that.

in other news: the new cd from fall out boy called "infinity on high" was leaked onto the internet.
even though i felt terrible for what happend, i am so glad it was leaked on the day of the show
it made that day get better and better. its love im telling you.
that cd is amazing. i cannot wait to buy it.

comming up:
~~pink spiders. cancelled.~~
braces removed
jays party
tampa/orlando hang.
INFINITY ON HIGH.
mommys bday
+more.

friends and enemies tour 07

dirrty has a babbbbyy

i guess he did lick his guitar.
i thought he didnt and lou siad he did and look at that! i got a pic by accident haha yes.

mm good picture.

good pic part 2! :D i was so happy they aloud cameras.

LastResortLiar: you have fun last night

dezzzam: sure nuff!

LastResortLiar: heard pete wentz got pulled over after the show for drunk driving

dezzzam: it was weird not going in the crowd but man im in love

dezzzam: hahah really.

LastResortLiar: yep

dezzzam: where

dezzzam: did you hear that

LastResortLiar: the voices in my head =]

dezzzam: wait. what haha

LastResortLiar: lol

LastResortLiar: he wasnt pulled over

dezzzam: oh.

dezzzam: HA!

dezzzam: you got me

LastResortLiar: yes yes I did

LastResortLiar: surprise surprise

LastResortLiar: zing

believeindez @ 2007-01-15T20:40:00

2007-01-16T01:49:21Z

blah no time for updating. notthing really happening. which is a bad thing. but its okay good things are comming my way.
a couple of shows comming up. that includes falloutboy and pinkspiders. ha isnt that funney two of my favorate bands all in one weekedn :)
im excited. then my braces removal. thank goodness. then in the begining of feb tampa friends are comming and i finally get to meet
some of them in person.
so expect updates from all those fun time. hope your life is going good.
i dream of california way to much. i dont mean to it. haha but it happens. my brain isthinking about college nonstop.im just mega conserend about whats going to happen after highschool. ew.

i wish more people looked at this.

some random outside pictuures of me and my little sister.

believeindez @ 2007-01-01T03:10:00

2007-01-01T08:12:58Z

happy new years.

once upon a time there was a cute mini snow white.

she was givin a jucie apple. and bit deeply into it.

yeah.

the end <3 hehe i love my mini me aka little sister. izzy

believeindez @ 2006-12-25T22:54:00

2006-12-26T07:04:06Z

so lets talk christmas .
christmas eve: went shopping with marielou basiclly the whole day . it was mega fun. i got some hot boots:),and we baught stuff for family. when we got home we just chilled and stuff. then my aunt, aunts boyfriend, and cousin came we just played games. we started playing charades. haha it was soooo funney. we wrote a lot of random things like, "grill", "snakes on a plane", and a whole bunch of random things. ha. my fav. was the jerry springer one. my partner was mike (aunts boyfriend) and lou and robbie were together. haha but yeah i was trying to act out jerry springer. and i couldnt do it alone so marielou helped me and she was acting like a black girl. then mikes like " ok so shes acting black so it must be....TYRA BANKS!" lmao. haha fun. then at 12 ish we ate. food. oh snap i forgot izzys dad showed up randomly . so now hes staying. good stuff. izzy bothers him now bwahhahahahhahhah.
christmas: ate loads. then did presents. i got my boots . and marco gotme a laptop?random. haha it kills me how much it cost due to i couldve gotten my CAm3era butt whateve. ill live. ;/ i like how im in bed right now typing this though haha. anyways. then we went to bed. during the day lou and i watched xmas movies. and the lake house. then we went to see night at the museum. haha i saw that twice already :D im such a history freek. even though theres not that much history in it oh well i love it. then we played tombraider. haha :D .....dude i feel so fat haha. it sucks . tommorw = attack of dieting again:((. i hate it but whateve i do it. and i am am am am going to bust my butt this time. its on.

tommorw: SALES SALES SALES that means butt loads of shooopppinnng: ) im pumped.

i hate how i always write a freekn story hahah. last one.

believeindez @ 2006-12-19T23:23:00

2006-12-20T04:32:28Z

im shaking for change, more like trembleing.

a lot of things suck right now:
money problems,family problems,friend problems,body problems,problems problems problems.
so much more. im not going to lie. i do not have a life right now.
i need things to start working out for me the way i plan.
i was hoping for change over this break.
not happening apperently.
i cant have 2 minutes bymyself at home. or anywhere.
your kid. you take care of her.
i think my mom is going through her midlife crisist. ha.
she was telling me how shes looking for a date, bla bla, she was telling me how
her time is running out. and i told her that i have no life at all at this moment.
its break i havnt been on break really. i havnt seen ANY of my friends. or any social life really.
she told me i have my whoollle life. and her time is still running out. haha right.
i was thinking in my head.. WAIT dont you have another baby waiting for you in the back seat.
dude. LOOK around.

i need a hobby. or a job.
HOLLA OBT!. negative.

ps. check out new fall out boy vid. its hott

believeindez @ 2006-12-16T15:51:00

2006-12-16T21:04:25Z

a lot but notthing has been happening.
i went to the braces place the other day? haha
i get my braces off january 25th, five days after the fall out boy show:)
since we got on the subject of FOB. i got my ticket today . that is all im getting
for xmas. and i baught my sister the ticket for her xmas present from me :).
were going to her job that day since its behind HRL. and im going to seriously
randomly get lost. :D mwahaha. i think im going to skip the crowd on this show.
for some reason i just dont feel crowdey anymore. im tired of the people in it
so yeah i have retired for now.

the other night my family and i went to the mickeys christmas party at disney.
it was soooo funn. even though it was sprinkeling it still looked like snow haha
its "florida snow" duh. but that was my older sisters christmas present to the fam:)
i drank like 4 free hot cocoas, they were soooo good :) and there was a dance party
with all the characters. and they played the high school musical song the one at the end
in the gym . and i all knew the dance haha. so i was showing my sister it haha. it was fun.
the parade was soo good. one of my fav. they had a toystory float. it was amazing. i love toy
story. and like the green toy soldiers in that movie were reall people in a band it was awsome
i didnt take a photo of that i shouldve though. oh well.

i hope this break is fun. i basicly failed my alg 2 exam yesturday. i think everyone did though
it sucked biiigggg time :( . i passed my history one. duh. and my esol one [shut up] of coarse i
passed that. the exam was to watch ice age 2 and we did worksheets on them ha . yeah
i slept through ice age 2 due to the fact i saw it in the theathers and that weekend before ha.
i hope i did good on spanish. for business i got a F , not my fault. and for science im pretty sure
i did ok. so yeah thats all.

OH SNAP! i almost for got about the jonas brothers hahahhaha . cristy lauren and i went to see
them on monday at AKA. it was fun seeing them again. there music is so fun to dance too haha.
took a lot of funney phtoos. but yeah theres not that much i can say. it was just really fun ahhaa <3

photo time.

they were fighting to be in the pic with me. i dont see why . i look llike a disaster hahahhahhah

believeindez @ 2006-11-19T22:55:00

2006-11-20T03:55:01Z

madina lake show with ralfffff , josh, aaron.
gangsters@burgerkind.
photoboothness

ralph josh and i

me matt and joe

kimmy and i

my carrr and izzy

boredem at the car place.
:)

believeindez @ 2006-11-03T15:21:00

2006-11-03T20:21:20Z

im trying to stay positive all the way sucker. :)
i dont care who gets in my way anymore.
ill just move you to the side.
so dont waste your time.

believeindez @ 2006-10-17T16:10:00

2006-10-17T21:21:47Z

soo this past week has been soo fun.
you have no idea. so lets begin.

<3ok paige arrived on the 8th which is also my little sisters bday so there was a party too. we bounced in this big bouncy thing my mom ordered it was pretty awsome. we took 34535 photos in it haha. so yeah party party party cake cake cake eggroll cake cake cake hahaa. pretty much. then at night we my older sister , paige and i went to holloween horror nights. it was paiges and i first time. it was soo fun. ;] i liked the die-in house. im terrified of the exorsist. probablly the thing im most scared of . and she didnt even jump out at me. she just stood there staring at me haha .but yeah anywyas. i ran into the people who were scaring me on accident haha pretty funney. we saw the bill and ted show <33 sooo good. i love bill and ted. mostly ted. haha hottay. it was pretty good. in one of the other housess ughh i think it was run. there was this guy pushing something into this chicks back and he was scaring the people in front of me then when he saw me he just smiled haha im like whaat? haha funn.
then some school days passed by. then we went to the mall to buy paige her homecomming dress. and stuff. then it got to the 2 days off . on thursday we went to my sisters work all day to help her at her wokr.we stayed in the blue recoring room the whole time putting peoples head shots into places. we saw this one guy named michael gorny haha <33 cute much! we cant find him on myspace thouhg hahah then at night we went to thenintendo fusion tour. met up with shayla and giancarlo. lost giancarlo most of the time. and hung out with paige and shayla hunting people down ahha. paige wanted a picture with tom from plain white ts so i talked to him for a while. he likes hands ... a lot... aperrently haha freek. jk i enjoyed the moement hahaha ... anyways.then during HH paige went with giancarlo into the crowd. while my sister, shayla , and i were in a corner looking cool on our phones haha. then i met this guy he was cool. frankie was his name i chatted with him through the rest of the night. then all the ladies went to my house. shayla got picked up by her dad. and then we passed out. no i passed out when paige was talking about jt woodruff and catching the drumstick haha im proud.
friday we went to ioa it was okay . lines were short. i was happy. then on saturday. we went to the dew action sports tour. hottttiees everywhere! haha hlike a buffet :D. i liked it. we were suppose to go again on sunday because we had free tickets. but we went to the art show instead. <3 i loved it i love photography sooooo pretty ,. i want my camera so i can take photos ;[ ./ then on sunday night was the chiodos show . we got there in the middle of chiodos . but made it intime for my song <33 yay. then when everytime i die was about to come on we went into the crowd met up with giancarlo. becaue it was his bday. paige didnt believe me when i said that the crowd was going to be worst ... way worst then the hawthorne heights show hahahhahaha. i told her. while we were waiting i also met another frank haha . weird franks everywhere. hes cool too. he was gaincarlos friend . i always found myself around him most of the time. after etid came on fftl came on they accually did an okay show. i dug it. good good good crowd. exept for the girls haha kinda funnye. atreyu was amazing! there was this dude in the crowd with me and he kept singing to me haha so cute. i love being in mosh's. ohhh deengg that guh is so hxc hahaha whaat. oh yeah then near the end i got the guts to crowd surf. unfourtunatly someone grabbed a boob ;[ but i took that risk. haha when i got down i talked to paige and told her to watch the crowd so i crowd surfed again so she can see hahahah. i feel the second time then they picked me up agian ahhahahhahaha so funney! i did a forward roll out of no where it was kid of weird. paige said she saw my big butt in the air for 1.2 seconds hahaa so funney. <3
so all in all it was amazingly fun week. my bones hurt. a lot.

PHOTOOOOOSSS

believeindez @ 2006-10-06T19:27:00

2006-10-06T23:55:49Z

if you be my star, ill be your sky

so big updates comming soon!.
izzys bday. paige is commming! and i guess the rest of the update will be what paige and i will be up to! :]
holloween horror nights, DEW ACTION SPORTS TOUR,shoppping, plain white ts, chiodos.
<3 oh my goodness i miss that girll!

eeh im out for now. illprob update later tonight on some random things if i get to that amount of borness ;] peace

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photos by queen elizabeth 29

wtf at my face.

nat. and i couldnt find the refreshing way to take a photo haha. i thought i looked alright today but i was wrong. haha

i like nijahs faceeee. i prob spelt her name wrong. its okay no one can spell mine too.

believeindez @ 2006-09-25T20:40:00

2006-09-26T00:53:26Z

were in the clear. searching for a way out. yet were stuck in the dungons of our anciestors.

i cant spell for my life.
thats not a good thing people.

this weeked was pretty exciting. on saturday we didnt do much. i ate at redlobster with my mum and bbsister. it was yummy. then at midnight i went with my sister to the rocky horror show. it was fun as always. it was amys last night doing it . shes moving to england to get married to her bristish man. .... .lucky. i want a british man :] anyyyways. the kid who played frankk.. was so good. he wins the best. haha you you wouldnt ever imagen what he looks like with out all tha tmakeup hah. hes a cutie though. after the show me my sister and joe [amys bro] went to dennys with the cast at 3 am. haha so good. hash browns and pancakes is just what i needed :D. i apperently was acting like i was wasted. haha i was soo tired. i havnt stayed up that late in forever. im not sure how i was talking but i remmeber peoples awkward faces. everyone was fun. there was a hecka lota people in that part of dennies. i bet they have good buisness. hahahhaha. it was soooo much fun :DD bleh we got home at like 5. then i passed out. haha good times good times.

sundayyyyyyy i went to sea world with my sisters and mmom. it was okay. fish. PENGUINS. sting rays. dogs <3
after that we went to eat at planet holllywood <3333333 my fav. i love it there. so that was good. then we came home and went back to bed
woke up watched 13 going on 30 . :] funnn

schools lame i dont need it. my teacher approved me of that.
he was asking people what they wrote on there papers about what they see themselfes going in 5-10yrs. and he was going to say what they needed in high school.then he came to me [he called me dez. it was weird] and i said i wanted to do school. be an actress,model,entertainment stuff. and then hes like ughhhh okay nevermind hahaha. pwned.
blah

ill be back sunay for the fun stuffff happening this weekend !

lol amy and i.. feel the loveee..

<3
lmao i love us.
funney convo with merlaine.

bodyheat CRASH: i make out with jared leto so bad
bodyheat CRASH: I MEAN MEET!!!!!!
bodyheat CRASH: HAHAHHAHAH
SHESuhKNOCKOUT: lmfaoo
SHESuhKNOCKOUT: jared lettoooo from 20 seconds to mars?
SHESuhKNOCKOUT: that freakishly hot one?
bodyheat CRASH: hahhahahhaa
bodyheat CRASH: 30 seconds!
bodyheat CRASH: yes that freakishly hot one
SHESuhKNOCKOUT: lol
SHESuhKNOCKOUT: my bad
bodyheat CRASH: hes like 30
SHESuhKNOCKOUT: 30*
SHESuhKNOCKOUT: and gay
SHESuhKNOCKOUT: :-D
bodyheat CRASH: if you were born in 1971 how old would you be

little in the middle but she got much back

believeindez @ 2006-09-21T22:30:00

2006-09-22T02:30:54Z

holloween=

who wants to be jamessssss

believeindez @ 2006-09-07T18:09:00

2006-09-07T22:16:36Z

pirATE DAY !#$%^$%

i love pirate day. so many pirates. mmhmm. so yeah today was pretty lame though. people got me mad in my classes. friggn retards. yeah but anyways. i got electrocuted today! hahah let me tell you how. i was fixing my moms car in the drive way and it was raining. then i got out and was holding the door and at the same time tehre was a mega super humongo big lightening strikke and thunder . hahah then i got shocked. im supprised im still alive because i was also in the rain hahahhaha weird. :] now my head and body heards sooo bad :(.. homecomming is saturday. and i am seriously praying that he will make it in. i hate universitys stricked policys. i mean its not like someone is gonna highjack the school gym. please i mean if it was at a fancy place then i would understand but i mean foreeel. blah anyways. more on that later. peace

believeindez @ 2006-09-01T18:03:00

2006-09-01T22:18:04Z

crazy crazy.
so yeah . ive been so tired latey i dont know why haha. its weird but yeah . wendsday we didnt have school because of the hurricain thing. the hurricain was so bad that i got my hair done :) haha yeah it wasnt bad at all if you diddnt get the point but yeah. last ngiht i went to the cheyenne show with cristy. her show was good but i dont like her. i think its so rude to make people pay to meet you. especuially when you have a show at the social. what. the . heck. haha lameo. you dont come in a stretch hummer limo in the tiny streets of down town orlando haha. but i did get pita pit ahhaha so yeah it was okay. cristy and i took a new photobooth pickture. its so funney ill put it up as soon as she gets it on a computer :] . then after the show (which ended at 730] my sister picked us up and she showed us where the aka lounge was. we went inside to ask them about the jbro tickts. but IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE! rawr. they changed the orlando date to the 30th so now i cant go becasue i have plans. haha its alright i made myself believe that its a sign that if i went something bad would happen haha yeah dont ask just leave me be. :] but im sure they will come back so yeah all good. BUT! it would be amazingly awsome if they changed the date:] haha just to add that. lala now its labor day weekend and im probably doing nada. there may be a good chnace of me going to coco beach to help my sister with this show on the tv that shows the hot spots of orlando. theres like a surfing comp. there so yeah good times. i hope we go so i dont have to bee at home. blah lame. now lets talk vma. i only saw half because we got in kind of late. but i saw good stuff. i liked seeing FOB. :] loooveee. but yeah they won viewers choice again. yay! butttt then again panic! won video of the year... so yeah. haha brendons voice was weird when they were performing . it remindind me of the FOB performance last year and pats voice was shakey too. nervousness takes over when your in front of billions of viewers. also when FOB won veiwers choice i enjoyed how after thier speach pete was like PETEWENTZWOO! . i giggled a lot then went DEZ WENTZ WOO! hahah it rymes for a reason fools.

i like the monkey :] . and the pete.

anddd i reallllly liked this photo. i used to be obsessed with shakira in like middle school so it made me happy :]

ps. who liked the random black guy who went up with panic to announce his thang! haha hes a rebel.

believeindez @ 2006-08-27T14:10:00

2006-08-27T18:39:19Z

okkayy so i was having a "moment" in that last post but whateve haha. its over.
i dont think no one even reads this anyways. oh well haa i like writing. .. i mean typing.
but anyways heres some things comming up thats exciting:

cheyenne-aug 30[with cristy]
homecomming-sept 9th [with giancarlo]
the jonas brothers.! :]-september 29 [with cristy and of coarse them]
philippipino concert-septermber 30 [with the family
izzys brithday-october 8th
paige is hopefully comming to orlando-october 6
no school-october 12-13
holloween horror nights-october[fridaythe] 13th [with paige giancarlo ect.]
giancarlos brithday and chiodos-october 15th
jacks mannequin/panic!-novemeber 8th [still not sure. i hate how its on a wednesday :( ]
hellogoodbye - novembre 10

yup basiclly the rest of my 2006 haha. but anyways.
trying to go to all of this is going to be brutal. my mom will not like this haha i have to be an extra help around the house and i hate that. i already hav e so much to deal with i mean please. haha but yeah. i have no idea how im gonna get all the money.
i added up most of this stuff [that includes money] and it was like 122$ :[ and im suppose tobe saving 500$ for my camera. eeeeekk.
so yeah im not gonna be hanging out for a while unless you go to these shows:]. i have to get mega good grades. and that isnt working
for me at the moment :[ i hate school . its not my thing. but i choose to go. so yeah ppoooo. about that panic! show im really not sure about that one becaseu its on a school day. so i doubt i will go to that. but i would really regret it. not like i wanna see panic. i saw them 3 times. but i wanna see jacks mannequin. <3 but whatever ill find a way to make this work.

this was fun to type<3

believeindez @ 2006-08-25T23:49:00

2006-08-26T03:59:29Z

i dont deserve any of this gold. i dont knwo what i was thinking. i hate how this world has to attack me each time this shows up. i knew it was to good to be true. notthing will ever go according to plan. telling people one thing then finding out another. then trying to take that other thing back even thought its a horrible decision. this is picking out my future. what i can become or who i can become. over there or over here. i hate how i know what the right choice should be but its not my desire. i seriously hate admitting that but thats how it happens. i have a lot of problems in this place. i never knew how much i go though each day unitll today. i have to make a lot of diffeernt choices. half of the time i choose to go the dead end way. and that will not help me in life. i see how i like to gather all the goods. and extend it to far. this isnt a choice of life or death. im just exaggerating way to much. but it is a big thing. i feel my angel and devil popping over my shoulders telling me what to do or what to choose. i just cant make it clear on whos speaking. thats the scary part.

ill get back to you on this story. waepm,r3q65Yrehb

believeindez @ 2006-08-12T20:14:00

2006-08-13T00:28:30Z

so yeha people get me angrey.
and i put up with it. theres notthing i can do.
im trapped here doing everything so i can dosomething.
and dont get me started on even. whos the grown up here.
apperently NOT YOU!

anyways. its been pretty fun lately. school started thats alright. not horrible but not amazing. i hate getting up though. 1st period blows because its so early. so yueah whateve. then ive been having photoshoots and partys and hangouts. kind of. i hate how i have to fight with someone to do all those things. i mean we could just skip the fighting and just give me a straight answer. please. but ya. fun photoshoot with the sisters and cousin. ill put picktures of that later on. photobucket is being mean right now. and today i went to chris's birthday party. it was fun. just me giancarlo brytti and chris so yeha fun times. seeing giancarlo again was very exciting i miss that sukka so much. haha took goofy picktures.played pool.[ giancarlo and i sooooo won! :) ] played halo,dead or alive [i pwn at that game seriously. its becasue im azn] then watched doom. well us two didnt i dont even think the other kids did haha but we were messing with stuff around chris's house. his house is like a spys house. its so big haha. then after the movie giancarlo left and we hung in chris;s room. we sat there listening to music and then watching degrassi :) . then my mom came to pick me up then more drama happend. :this just in!: people are lame :(. i cant wait till i can do whatever i want. i should just stay home all the time and let a lot of good oppertunity pass me by of my teenage years. OH WAIT. thats already happening =P. rawr. whatever. people need to .AEINFIANFAOH8R03U40UDASKNF :(. yah. its really hot in my house. i forgot to tell you im sick too. so thats why i look pale and weird in my picktures :[ . haha oh well i love them.

ok these are just some photos. more are comming. so yeha...

location:chris's house.
characters:giancarlo and i being silly

bff :) i miss him. :[

ps. im gonna put the photoshoot photos later. its being weird s oyeah.